Do you know what I just did?
DO YOU KNOW WHAT I JUST DID???
I emailed an agent to ask her to delete the query and sample pages that I sent two weeks ago in order that I may email her my new and improved query.
Do you know how unorthodox, how possibly wrong that could be? How many rules I broke?
And do you know...
...I don't give a shit.
You don't get anywhere in life without breaking some rules. It matters so much to me that I finally discovered what makes my book truly unique out there in that market where the best selling books right now are a fiction trilogy about bondage that it is worth the possibility of pissing off an agent so much that she may not only delete my original query but tell me to screw off forever.
Except that even when breaking rules, I remain polite and professional. I don't flatter, I don't beg. I figured she'd understand that when inspiration hits a writer, you can't control the timing.
What do I have to lose? I just finished editing my book again (Is anyone keeping track of what draft this is? It might be 12) and made so many improvements, including removing an entire chapter -- painfully, it was about Diana but it breaks up the flow and has lost its relevancy in this scaled-down version -- that I'm not just hopeful about this book again, I'm excited.I'm excited at finding something unique, something that adds to the information out there about this growing epidemic. I'm excited that even if this agent isn't interested in my book no matter what query I send, I had the guts to email her anyway.
Now, if you will excuse me, I'm going to throw up.